Mariel Rodriguez-Padilla opens up about her two miscarriages
MANILA, Philippines – Since going through the heartbreaking experience of two miscarriages, Mariel Rodriguez-Padilla opened up about what she went through in an interview with Boy Abunda, Monday, November 30.
In the interview, Mariel recalled her first miscarriage last March, speaking about how she handled the situation:
“With what I’ve been through Tito Boy, I can say that I've been through different levels of pain. So I dealt with it differently each time. The first time…that one, I thought it was the most painful thing ever that has happened to me. Because finally when I was ready, when I decided that I want to have a baby, then it happened. Iyon pala hindi pa iyon yun pinakamasakit (But it turns out, that's not the most painful yet) ,” she said.
Mariel said she was very grateful that husband Robin Padilla was there for her as she struggled to cope with the sad news.
“Hindi ako sinuwerte na magkaroon ng anak ngayon pero sobra akong suwerte sa asawa,” Mariel said as she became emotional. (I may not be lucky when it comes to having a child, but I'm lucky to have a supportive husband.)
“Sobra niya akong inalagaan (He really took care of me) most especially the second time it happened,” she said referring to the second miscarriage in August.
“This one was even more [painful] because I had multiple pregnancies…it was either twins versus triplets. Sabi ko ‘wow, siguro dahil nagka-miscarriage ako, kaya pinalitan ni God.’ Ito na iyon. Or kung may mawawala man, may isa among matitira.' (I said 'wow, because I had a miscarriage, I guess this is God's new gift. This is it. Or if ever one is gone, one will remain.) I had one with a heartbeat Tito Boy. So I was really hoping.
"And then I lose the heartbeat. So iyon talaga, nag breakdown na ako doon (So on that, I really was breaking down) Tito Boy. I was really going to lose it already. I was about to go dark, I was bitter, I was not in a good place. And then Robin took me out of the country and he reassured me that the world would be okay even if it was just the two of us. He was able to make something bad positive, na feel ko blessed pa din ako Tito Boy," Mariel said as she wiped her tears.
Mariel said that at this point, she has learned to accept already that having a child is not yet for her. (READ: Mariel Rodriguez-Padilla enters 'PBB 737' house)
“Sa panahong ganun, mas maa-appreciate mo si God. So ngayon, even after that, naano ako sa sarili ko na hindi lang during bad times ko dapat pinupuntahan si God. (During those times, you will learn to appreciate God. So now, even after that, I realized it should not only be in bad times that I look to God.)
“Kung may nangyayari sa life ko, palagi na akong nagpapasalamat kay God at hindi ako ma-God. So, mas naa-appreciate ko talaga. Malaki yung naging impact niya sa akin." (If there's anything that's happening in my life, I should always thank God. And I'm not really religious, so I really appreciate it. It had a huge impact on my life.)
Two weeks ago, Mariel had a dilation and curettage procedure. She said it took a while because she was hoping for a miracle. However, she decided to finally let it go.
Despite what she has been through, Mariel said she is learning to be positive again.
"I think that's one thing I'm really grateful for. Kasi, nakakahanap pa rin ako ng rason para maging masaya. Marami pa rin reasons. (I still find reasons to be happy. There are so many reasons.) I'm still so blessed," she said. – Rappler.com